I am a bad person

lots of things had happened recently, i realized that i had turned in to a very bad person. i had lost my patient, i started not to believe, i know i shouldn't act that way but i had turn into a "monters" as i would describe myself. I had lost the faith and love of a christian.. i started to hate things that happened around me, including people, i really hate myself of acting that way. My heart is really weary now, disappointment, as if everything are going against what i wanted it to be...I really do not know how far i can still take it..I am indeed tired, exhausted...my spiritual life is so dry that i don't think its alive any more..