Bad Times..

Times really pass so fast, lots of things started to change but as the things changed, everything is falling into its own place. I guess this two weeks for me is quite torturing for me. i had gone through disappointment, despair and i even question the word trust?!..But its so pathetic that sometimes when i really try my very best to maintain certain things but not avail. Well i had already done my very best and i had commit everything to HIM and now i will just have to let go of certain things. I had to admit that its so painful and difficult for me to let go, but i just had to. During this time i am really glad that there are still "angles" that stood by me, and i really am grateful to those people who standby me. I really thank God for guiding me through this ordeal, because of His unselfish Love, i learn to forgive and let go. Whatever that had happen, i still had to get going on with my life..if there's a chance for me to go back to the past, i will do the same thing as well, and that is to forgive and forget.

Stress Out!!

Recently i am really stress out..especially at work, lots of stuff happened, and i was really not so happy about it. I had tried to calm down and i really tried to control my emotions and anger especially with mood swing people and also those people with temper. Sometimes i wonder is there anything wrong with my attitude or what? i kept thinking that may be i unintentionally offended someone without realizing it but i had tried my best to fix everything but its too pathetic that things won't go exactly what i expected. There is this incident which really bother me a lot recently, i had ask for apologies (even though i didn't do anything wrong) but sometimes when u really wanted to mend a friendship and you had tried everything you can but it just wont work. I do hope that everything will turn out to be OK, but now, today.. at least there is this one thing that i felt relief; i had already done everything i can and i had really try my very best and there wont be any regrets for me in future!..No matter what the outcome is, i think i will handle it with a peace of mind. There is another thing that i don't like especially when i had tried my best; i really mean my very very best to help, but someone just don't appreciate it! I really felt so so pissed off when all my effort turn out to be nothing, i never wish for any returning for my effort because when i wanted to help a person i help from the depth of my heart, its sincere and i do not wish for any returning but what i don't like when people treat my effort as a trash and never appreciate it and sometimes its so ridiculous that they will think that i lie and never trust what i say....I really don't understand that why is a sincere effort turn out to be a lie?? or may be "trash"..!!!! I better stop writing, i don't even know what i am writing already..

People with mood swing is Very Annoying!!

I am really piss off with very emotional people. These people usually have mood swing in a dramatically way. I really wonder why i kept on encounter with this kind of emotional people; last time was during my studies in University, and now my work place. I really felt so annoying when one moment they are nice then after a few second they can change their temper 360 degree. I am now trying my best to control my anger and discomfort infront of them, sometimes i really wish that i can shout to them right at their face that i really felt uncomfortable to their mood swing and temper. How i wish i had the courage to tell them...sigh..